My soul feels so satisfied right now. There's such a deep knowing that all is well when it comes to what is eternal. I was thinking about this the other night and overcome with gratefulness. I believe it was the Father who then spoke the words in my mind, "You've come home". And that's exactly what it feels like. I'm at home. I'm at home with my Father's overwhelming love for me. Even though I've always known him, my identity was more wrapped up in what I could do for him rather than who He wanted to be to me. I've come home and my Dad has thrown a party. I'm in agreement in a deeper way that all He is and all He has, is mine, because I'm His. It's like my spirit is shouting yes! I believe you. Not because I should, but because I actually do. I feel settled, like Someone's perfectly strong, capable hand is resting on my heart. I'm not alone, trying to do what I can with my goodness. I'm overcome by His goodness. I feel rich and I'm eating the best food.

I've read so many Bible verses for so many years and believed them the best that I could. But now I keep having those moments where what I'm experiencing is what I've read about in the Bible and inside I'm jumping up and down shouting, "this is what that is".  Even as I'm writing now, so many past prayers are coming to mind. Things I've told God I wanted to experience. And this is that. Man it's overwhelming in the most wonderful way. I'm blown away by His faithfulness. He is so kind and so patient. And He holds my heart so gently. I feel so taken care of by Him. It's so good to be the kid and let Him be the parent. I've desperately wanted to know how to receive like this, to rest like this. And now the tears won't stop.