A mixture of the serious and funny parts of my life as a wife, a mother, and a woman pursuing God.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Noelle's prayer
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Noelle's future husband
Monday, November 24, 2008
Noelle and Daddy
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Cute pics
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Fall pictures
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Hilariously embarrassing
Friday, November 7, 2008
my funny girl
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Thursday, October 30, 2008
A little more honesty
I didn't know when I started writing tonight if it would be just for myself or if I would post it. I figured though that humility is a good thing and if it helps anyone else feel like they're not alone in failing, well then that's a good thing too...
I feel like I’m losing. I’m losing my battle to pray everyday. Plain and simple. I have failed again to follow God’s leading. He asked me a while ago to pray from 10 to 10:30 each night (I need things to be set for them to happen) and I have pushed it aside except for a couple of occasions. I have excused myself somehow. I have rationalized why it’s okay that I haven’t done this. God is a God of seasons…I know this. I also know that this is supposed to be a season of me seeking God in a new way. Of not making excuses for why I don’t pray more. For not being a slave to my comfort and my busy schedule anymore.
It’s so hard because on one hand I can be so hard on myself, which can drive me away from Jesus even more. So then I remember that he loves me and I don’t have to be perfect and I feel better. The problem is when I stop at feeling better and don’t actually do what I want to do. I can go from one extreme to the other and then never get anything accomplished.
I’m supposed to be praying…I need to pray. To really pray. Not just throwing up prayers throughout the day (even though that’s good to do) or taking five minutes to read my Bible and reflect for a moment. God is pulling on me. He’s challenging me during this time. But He’s not challenging me to run a marathon or find the cure for cancer. No, He’s simply asking me to pray. To pray and then watch what he can do through my prayers. He wants to show himself to me, that’s all. Well maybe that’s not everything but that’s a part of it.
This reminds me of a lesson God taught me when I was on my DTS with Youth With a Mission. It was the last week and we had just gotten back from our outreach (I had gone to Papua New Guinea, not that this matters). I was in Texas and it was on a ranch and there was a loop around the property where you could walk. There was a lot of land. I’m terrible with numbers so I don’t know exactly how many acres but it was huge. One night I was in the dorm hanging out with friends but I felt like going outside. I had this crazy thought that I should take a walk around the loop and talk to God because he had some things he wanted to show me. It was completely dark out, again it was nighttime. I was thinking, there’s no way, that would be SO scary. I didn’t even think I could do it. During this conversation in my head, Jesus puts his two cents in. I feel him speaking through my thoughts. He says something like, “you don’t have to go, I won’t be angry or even disappointed, it’s up to you. You can stay and you won’t have lost anything but you also won’t know what you would have learned or experienced if you did go.” It was great too because I really felt like there wasn’t any pressure. He wouldn’t be holding anything against me if I didn’t do it. I was free to decide whether to risk being extremely uncomfortable in the dark and have an amazing time with God or just go back inside as if nothing had happened. Crazy as it was, for me at least, I decided to take the risk and go for the walk. As I walked, I started singing. Now as most of you should know, I don’t sing well. It is not a normal occurrence for me to sing by myself with the chance of someone hearing me. However, I sang new songs that came to me as I started to connect with God’s plan for me during that walk. When I came to an especially creepy part of the walk, the part where there are trees on either side of the loop, my resolve to go forward had to get stronger. It was cool though because as I was walking I saw this life lesson unfolding before me.
There are going to be a lot of things that God will ask me to do and the choice will ultimately always be mine. He won’t love me any less if I don’t do them, and I will still spend eternity with Him, and so on. However, I will never know the amazing things that could have come from my action if I don’t take the risk and say yes. I never felt so close to Jesus as I did that night walking around the loop in the dark. He was so present with me I really knew he was walking with me. I can't describe well enough the impact that walk with Jesus had on me.
I want to say yes again. I want to find out what’s out there in the dark if I would just be brave enough to take Jesus’ hand and walk. I know it'll be worth it.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Noelle the giraffe
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Delaware Kids' Directory
*Charis Latshaw featured on the Nov. cover*For those of you who don't know much about my business I thought I would explain a little more. Hopefully it won't be too boring : ) So, Kids' Directories (www.kidsdirectories.com) are in over 100 cities across the nation and how you start yours is you buy a license for your area. Delaware was not taken yet, so we got to buy the license for Delaware. Usually, you get a city or a city and the surrounding area. Nope, not us, we get the whole state : ) I guess they didn't think anyone else would take just lower Delaware.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Honesty
I love honesty. I love honesty within myself, I love honesty between myself and God, I love honesty with those I love. I’m having a moment of wanting to be really honest about the way I fail. I’ve learned to love being okay with falling short. The only way to feel okay with this of course is to know that there’s Someone who doesn’t fall short and doesn’t respond according to what I deserve.
I still hate it when I don’t take the time I need to with God or don’t give him my attention throughout the day in the way that I know blesses him as well as me. It’s not that I love my shortcomings but rather I love being in the place where I can look honestly at myself and still feel completely loved and valuable. This hasn’t always been the case, and remembering how I used to feel about falling short reminds me of how far God has brought me. This is especially encouraging when I feel like I’m still in the same place of wishing I was doing more of what I want to with God.
So more about how I fail…I fail to be patient with Noelle sometimes when she wants to ask the same question twenty times in a row…I fail to trust Jesus that he is truly taking care of us…I fail to trust Josh’s heart towards me sometimes and jump to conclusions. I fail to have dialogue with my God in the way that I know I can…I fail to pray for those that I love. I fail to cast all my cares on Jesus…I fail to ask for what I need. It’s amazing to start listing them all because I could keep going and going. And the weird part is that it’s truly not depressing, it really is so liberating. It’s so crazy that I can fail in so many ways and on a daily basis and yet every day I have a million chances to make a different choice. Even if I didn’t have very much dialogue with God today…tomorrow I could talk to him all day long. Today, even though I may have carried anxiety and stress that I don’t have to…tomorrow I could throw it all at the feet of Jesus and he won’t think a thing about how I didn’t do it today. Jesus is the most of aware of my human nature, most aware of how very often I fall short. And yet he is the most able to respond in love, to respond in forgiveness and with grace.
It’s weird that the best way to feel good about yourself isn’t to make up excuses or rationalize why what you do isn’t that bad. That someone else is worse than you and that you’ve tried your best. One way I picture the way I want to be is that I’m in a room with Jesus and all my failings and shortcomings are in the room too. I’m not squirming or ashamed…my eyes aren’t downcast and hoping Jesus doesn’t see through me. No, I’m sitting there peacefully, fully aware that no matter how full that room is with my failings, Jesus’ love and joy over my life doesn’t change. I’m looking Him in the eyes and there’s an exchange of love, of understanding…I’m the sinner and He’s the Savior. There’s nothing to hide, nothing to try and justify. I fail and He doesn’t. Isn’t that great?
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Noelle and Jesus
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
good times with the girls













Here are the pictures as promised last night. Maddie and I had fun doing our own little photo shoot. Now, I am not the expert picture taker of myself (I know some of you have mastered the art...you know who you are...lol) but I thought it would be fun to have some pictures of the two of us since I'm always the one taking pictures. The pictures of Noelle with the shirt on her head was her idea because she saw Madeline's pictures with her shirt on her head and thought she needed some pictures like that as well : )








